hello

Well, if you are reading this you already know who I am, so no introductions necessary... I used to journal all the time, however, the last few years,and two kids later, I don't get around to it much... i miss jotting down my thougts, and feeling closure to a days worth of thoughts. I don't get to share with most of you where my heart is at these days, so I figured this would be a nice way to do that yaknow....It's almost 1 am and Estella finally fell asleep, Ishould be getting in bed, but it is finally me time, how can i resist.... Being a mom is my world these days, yet I can't help but feel like I get lost in all of it.  There is so much more to me, and I don't want to forget that part of who I am.  Rich, i love him so and he really deals with the brunt of my crazy days, thank God for him and the love that he has for me, I am not sure if I would be where I am at without him.  Lately the most of my thinking leans toward Liam and Estella, and how I can give them a just world to live in... yet I know that I can't change the status of the world, so hopefully I can teach them to see god's beauty amist all the junk.  My heart longs for change yet I know even with the up and coming election the changes won't be enough.... it is so crazy how becomming a parent changes your thinking.  I don't think we ever realized the intesity of bringing life into this world would be.  So that is that.  This world we live in is nuts, and I just want to make it better.  My heart yearns for change, for freedom of religion, and freedom of all that the world makes to be sooo important.  I don't care what anyone thinks.... and I will try my best to make sense of what I've got.  I can't wait to share more of the craziness that goes on in my head.  love you all. be blessed. L