life just is what it is....

one day you wake up and everything that was isn't, now is not, and there is only the drive to see what lays ahead.  i never imagined life being what it is. never knew how hard it would be, how much pain i would feel, how much hope i would have to see things change, how much courage to endure, and strength to not completely fall apart.  i yearn for freedom, for truth, for a just world...i feel stuck in the middle of a crazy whirlwind...  am i my biggest obstacle? have i always been standing in my own way?  so many questions, not enough answers...things fall into place, start to make sense, but is that enough?  is that true freedom?  transformation, a new heart, a new mind, new strength, new hope, new peace, new joy, new freedom...its overwhelming...but at the end of the day, it is what it is. there is no turning back, no running away. take it and go with it. see what God is going to do. that is that.